I always been an outsider in France but now it\u2019s becoming serious. I feel like a stranger. Speaking French is incredibly odd, searching for words and not feeling comfortable at all.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t know why but seeing Asians and black people NOT speaking English freaks the shit out of me. I want to hear this rolling and low riding Californian accent. This tone.<\/p>\n
Of course speaking French fucks up my English and I try not to speak my native language if I can, which is easy by living alone coupled to the rise of self-checkout machines. But my biggest problem is that I really don\u2019t care a lot about what\u2019s going on here. I did before, feeling \u201cback to my hometown\u201d<\/em> but now I really don\u2019t. Because I don\u2019t feel close in any way. I feel like nothing changes in my old country and my generation is heavily settling down now so it\u2019s going to get worse, as an individual. Being the guitar playing black friend in the park hanging out with white couples+ babies? Not really wanting that. I\u2019ve seen this soft cooning, it\u2019s sad. I\u2019m trying to escape that.<\/p>\n It\u2019s difficult to sit on the fence. Looking back and forth. Left, right.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I always been an outsider in France but now it\u2019s becoming serious. I feel like a stranger. Speaking French is incredibly odd, searching for words and not feeling comfortable at all. I don\u2019t know why but seeing Asians and black people NOT speaking English freaks the shit out of me. I want to hear this […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1385"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1385"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1385\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1386,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1385\/revisions\/1386"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1385"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1385"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1385"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}