The first time I was probably thirteen or fourteen. After a day at school watching The Name of the Rose which features torture, I was at my friend\u2019s and we watched Robocop 2, and then I was home playing Doom. Killing monsters. More blood. More guns. At some point I\u2019m in berserk mode with blood all over my monitor, sound FXs something just kicks in in my head: I don\u2019t want this anymore. Just stop. What the fuck is wrong with you. Hours and hours of violence, just for fun? I stopped. Put some cool music and grabbed my comics. I had found out that there\u2019s a threshold.<\/p>\n
The second time was pretty obvious: 9\/11. We\u2019re at work and it\u2019s been months that my office is \u201cterrorists only\u201d on Counter-Strike everyday at lunch. We joke all the time about it. How many suicides to make our team win? I don\u2019t know but that day it didn\u2019t work. I think we stopped playing CS for at least two weeks.<\/p>\n
The third time was last year with SpyParty. I was starting to dig the spy action and be amazed at the amount of information the sniper has to deal with. Extremely stressful and fascinating. But then, the Colorado shooting happened. Snipping in SpyParty triggers avatars screaming and searching for cover in a room. I haven\u2019t been able to launch the game since then. I failed at making myself a mental \u201csandbox where it\u2019s all right to shoot people because it\u2019s just a game\u201d<\/em>. Since then more shootings. Last one<\/a> I read about.<\/p>\n It\u2019s frustrating because first person view is great. Immersion-wise, it\u2019s hard to beat. Instantly send a player to game over with a headshot is very satisfying too. Beat the shit out of a punk in a third person view game works all right too.<\/p>\n I\u2019m kind of glad I don\u2019t have kids. The threshold for them is probably way up now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" The first time I was probably thirteen or fourteen. After a day at school watching The Name of the Rose which features torture, I was at my friend\u2019s and we watched Robocop 2, and then I was home playing Doom. Killing monsters. More blood. More guns. At some point I\u2019m in berserk mode with blood […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1580"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1580"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1580\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1580"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1580"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1580"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}