{"id":1766,"date":"2014-02-19T15:59:09","date_gmt":"2014-02-19T15:59:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/?p=1766"},"modified":"2014-02-19T15:59:10","modified_gmt":"2014-02-19T15:59:10","slug":"impression","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/2014\/02\/impression\/","title":{"rendered":"Impression"},"content":{"rendered":"

Eryka Badu comes out of my speakers singing how he\u2019s moving to Hollywood<\/em> (random playlist).<\/p>\n

My computers are on PST, my phone is on GMT and Southern California pictures show up from time to time, all the time.<\/p>\n

I feel like it\u2019s late though it\u2019s 9am and I can\u2019t say that it\u2019s jetlag\u2019s fault.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m often confused waking up, was it a dream or am I really here or there or am I dreaming now?<\/p>\n

Taking the same trains again reminds me of myself in my 20s, full of hope for this country. lol. I did my best.<\/p>\n

When it\u2019s sunny my restless legs want to pedal or skateboard because I think of L.A. but then I remember that I\u2019m in Paris and actually, it will only be sunny for 20 minutes before some massive rain so\u2026<\/p>\n

Everybody\u2019s late. In LA I show up on time, I\u2019m the last one. In Paris I show up on time, I\u2019m always the first one arrived and wait another hour before we start whatever. It\u2019s always been this way, it just gets more and more annoying.<\/p>\n

I can\u2019t stand how people look down constantly, I hate the lack of eye contact. 20,000 people\/km\u00b2 will make you forget to be human. There are the most obnoxious and insufferable motherfuckers I have ever seen in this city, at some point it\u2019s even funny.<\/p>\n

My though process is way too global\/American now to get a real sense of what\u2019s going on politically or socially. It sounds useless or completely nuts (\u00fcber and taxi cabs, Europe\u2019s political decisions). It\u2019s the weirdest thing to be a native and *snaps* you\u2019re not. I wasn\u2019t the typical French dude before CA but now I really am not.<\/p>\n

I see more than ever how interracial relationships are non-existent in France. In another amazing blog post<\/a> from Ta-Nehisi he writes:<\/p>\n

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If you begin from the proposition that African-Americans are fundamentally American, in a way that the Afro-French are not; and that America is, itself, a black country in a way that the other European countries are not, Barack Obama’s election strikes you somewhat differently.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cAfro-French are not French\u201d<\/em>. He\u2019s right. We\u2019re just around raising babies or helping grandmas, cleaning up streets and metros or selling cannabis but we are not welcome more than that and trust me, born and raised by white people I see all that xenophobia and racism in HDR\/X-Ray\/WireFrame. I have seen it grow. I have seen it change, become nastier, even more hidden and it\u2019s sad how as an individual I can\u2019t do anything about it. I avoid it like a master ninja, disengaging conversations that could lead to pain or avoiding resentment because if I\u2019m the Angry Black Man then I probably want to Keep It Real and then it Goes Wrong<\/a>.<\/p>\n

The good thing is, it made me prescient and in control.<\/p>\n

I was born in Paris and I will not stay.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Eryka Badu comes out of my speakers singing how he\u2019s moving to Hollywood (random playlist). My computers are on PST, my phone is on GMT and Southern California pictures show up from time to time, all the time. I feel like it\u2019s late though it\u2019s 9am and I can\u2019t say that it\u2019s jetlag\u2019s fault. I\u2019m […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1766"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1766"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1766\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1767,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1766\/revisions\/1767"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1766"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1766"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1766"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}