{"id":1812,"date":"2014-04-17T07:25:29","date_gmt":"2014-04-17T07:25:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/?p=1812"},"modified":"2014-04-17T07:25:34","modified_gmt":"2014-04-17T07:25:34","slug":"bros-first","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/2014\/04\/bros-first\/","title":{"rendered":"Bros first"},"content":{"rendered":"

The closest people from my personal story are Barack Obama, Mario Balotelli<\/a> and Frantz Fanon<\/a>. Black dudes who grew up in a white world without black people around which for some reason, made us anxious as hell and confused.<\/p>\n

Barack found peace marrying the blackest, smartest woman he could find. She mentored him, the rest is history. Nicely done, B.<\/p>\n

Mario is still searching for peace, got a baby girl without wanting her, still fighting an incredibly crazy world of irrational love when he scores, spits and banana peels when he doesn\u2019t. Hang tight son I\u2019m ten years older and I\u2019m telling you, the rollercoaster has just started.<\/p>\n

Frantz is dead. He wrote all his life about how fucked up things are, race wise. It\u2019s incredibly disheartening to witness that a book<\/a> published sixty motherfucking five years ago still describes accurately what is going on socially: black people, white people and language. Black women and white men. White women and black men. All that stuff is still happening. It\u2019s about survival. It\u2019s still about survival. <\/p>\n

Me? Well I have a plan but sure, I\u2019m still searching for inner peace I guess. I read too much. White kids and babies are still really fascinated by my face. They look at me with this intensity, I feel like a Nubian King (\u201cnow bow down, little fucker!\u201d<\/em>). And I still haven\u2019t hold a black baby in my arms. Ever. I will cry and not hear anything around me, no doubt. If that happens.<\/p>\n

My relationship with my parents is so surreal now. It\u2019s like they have a son, stripped down from all identity from their point of view. And it doesn\u2019t matter to them because as long as I\u2019m around helping them out they\u2019re happy. I\u2019m not and they don\u2019t really get it. More like they don\u2019t want to, a bit. Sometimes I explain stuff to them, my point of view, throw some numbers and stats and they are crushed, looking down. And I\u2019m like, \u201cexactly!\u201d<\/em> that\u2019s what I feel too but I can\u2019t stop won\u2019t stop so don\u2019t be sad, just show some support from time to time. <\/p>\n

But it\u2019s easier to do like none of that stuff exists. France is world champion hands down on that behavior so I know it\u2019s cultural, not that my parents are mean, though they could be cooler. I mean, even my sister says it. God, it\u2019s so weird. Yet so rich.<\/p>\n

I dream of sleeping and waking up in LA everyday. It\u2019s getting closer.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The closest people from my personal story are Barack Obama, Mario Balotelli and Frantz Fanon. Black dudes who grew up in a white world without black people around which for some reason, made us anxious as hell and confused. Barack found peace marrying the blackest, smartest woman he could find. She mentored him, the rest […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1812"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1812"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1812\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1813,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1812\/revisions\/1813"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1812"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1812"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1812"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}