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It\u2019s been a little intense in the past few weeks. Things got cancelled, people quit, I didn\u2019t get a job that I was eyeing hard and as too often in this economy or world I don\u2019t know, I just don\u2019t know where I failed, where I can improve. Things looked pretty good, on my way to the third interview aka the Final Stage but yeah, nope. There will be other opportunities. Time to regroup and breathe. <\/p>\n

Still watching or not watching those videos of black people getting murdered, brutalized, killed. Everyday. My mind becomes an anechoic chamber<\/a>. Not a single white person talks to me about that, I can tell it\u2019s not even on their radar. Not even a little, two minute chat where I can hear a white person tell me \u201cyeah, this is fucked up\u201d<\/em> so that I don\u2019t feel like we\u2019re against each other. Black people are on the edge and you keep looking away. I feel like this summer is going to be crazy and desperate.<\/p>\n

Of course this stays here or locked up in my mind and I just act as if all of that wasn\u2019t happening most of the time. Sometimes I wonder if it\u2019s a good thing to lie to and convince myself that everything is cool, everything is awesome when I have tangible proof that it\u2019s fucking not.<\/p>\n

Sorry! I forgot to breathe.<\/p>\n

The other day:<\/p>\n

\"Stuck
<\/a>Yes, I stopped and helped him too.<\/em> <\/p>\n

That clueless old white man got his car back on the road thanks to five black and brown young people pushing his ass back in the parking lot. I thought it was consistent with the world we\u2019re living in.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It\u2019s been a little intense in the past few weeks. Things got cancelled, people quit, I didn\u2019t get a job that I was eyeing hard and as too often in this economy or world I don\u2019t know, I just don\u2019t know where I failed, where I can improve. Things looked pretty good, on my way […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1990"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1990"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1990\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1991,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1990\/revisions\/1991"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1990"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1990"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1990"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}