{"id":3062,"date":"2020-05-14T03:54:16","date_gmt":"2020-05-14T03:54:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/?p=3062"},"modified":"2020-05-14T03:54:16","modified_gmt":"2020-05-14T03:54:16","slug":"silent-second","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/2020\/05\/silent-second\/","title":{"rendered":"Silent Second"},"content":{"rendered":"

First there was that time when the police showed up in their car on the basketball court with the dude coming out of it, pulling out his baton from his belt and yelling \u201chow are you doing?\u201d<\/em> at me, alone runnin\u2019 and shootin\u2019. It was late morning during the first week of lockdown. I wasn\u2019t impressed but I was annoyed. They were killing a bad ass streak of swishes. This officer was getting closer with his baton and I was walking away from him.<\/p>\n

Then same place, same me but a big LAPD SUV pulls up. Time slows down. I don\u2019t hear them coming so I\u2019m surprised and I guess, scared. Time stops. My breathing too.<\/p>\n

There\u2019s this unbelievable second of\u2026\u201dis it.\u201d<\/em> There\u2019s no cut to dramatic or peaceful music. It\u2019s just silence and peace. That peace that you have to find within yourself to understand the possible situation. Situation that things might end prematurely. Everything. Next seconds. It\u2019s bizarre. You know it\u2019s wrong.<\/p>\n

So I keep doing my little runs baseline. The squad car only slows down. Tinted windows, can\u2019t tell anything. My heart is beating, there\u2019s not a soul out there. I feel like I need to feel like a king, to dare. To not back away, attitude and energy wise? I don\u2019t know. It\u2019s hard to explain. It goes by so fast. They leave.<\/p>\n

It wasn\u2019t the first time I experienced that Silent Second in Front of the Cops but this was an intense one. It\u2019s 2020, it already feels like the end of the world. Being black, shot and killed is such a regular life occurrence, sometimes I tear up just thinking about it. The fact that we have to be wary of the people in charge of protecting us in society is some monumental, twisted shit.<\/p>\n

I have things to do.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

First there was that time when the police showed up in their car on the basketball court with the dude coming out of it, pulling out his baton from his belt and yelling \u201chow are you doing?\u201d at me, alone runnin\u2019 and shootin\u2019. It was late morning during the first week of lockdown. I wasn\u2019t […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3062"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3063,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062\/revisions\/3063"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3062"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3062"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3062"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}