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This is a bottle of  Head&Shoulders and I\u2019m about to drink it<\/em> <\/p>\n

I just arrived in San Francisco, a bit tired I have this iphone to take pictures, today is the Apple conference and I don\u2019t care. I\u2019m netbooking my way through Win7 and it\u2019s cool.<\/p>\n

At least once a day someone is telling me in the street \u201cI like your hat!\u201d<\/em> and it feels great.<\/p>\n

I think I\u2019m lacking so much love that the stupidest thing I can enjoy, I do. Kind of cool because I\u2019m like a camel, I can perform and survive with so few. This scarcity is well matching the game industry.<\/p>\n

On the other hand it breaks me. I no longer can find a simple way to give\/receive because I\u2019m so scared now to put my feelings on the table. Not afraid. Scared, like something I\u2019m still figuring out how to manage while at the same time I care and do everything I can to please people, to make them feel great. This is the not afraid part.<\/p>\n

I feel my heart is tremendous. And yet empty. I feel I\u2019m always in \u201cshould I stay or should I go\u201d<\/em> stance about love and women. And as you know time is not waiting for you.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m reading Quincy Jones autobiography and the way he had no mother \u2013well he had but a crazy one-, always in love with every women he was meeting and of course his dedication to music, makes me feel I\u2019m quite normal somehow. 60s France seems like a dream for US black dudes.<\/p>\n

Fifty years later a EU black dude feels the dream in the US. I dreamed about me with no more shyness<\/a> and kissing her and make the world a better place. Yeah, all at the same time. The craziest things on the planet happened so I can go and try to do my thing (yeah I\u2019m digging the Tim Ferris shit<\/a> like crazy, thanks to Sean & Tara).<\/p>\n

And then I\u2019m stuck, not taking all the chances as if it would burn me. <\/p>\n

FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUU<\/p>\n

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