{"id":931,"date":"2009-09-30T22:23:45","date_gmt":"2009-09-30T22:23:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/chocobeam.me\/playground\/2009\/09\/speechless\/"},"modified":"2009-09-30T22:23:45","modified_gmt":"2009-09-30T22:23:45","slug":"speechless","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/har0ld.com\/playground\/2009\/09\/speechless\/","title":{"rendered":"Speechless"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I have one problem with music: lyrics. I can\u2019t really listen to them. Sometimes I cam hum every single instrument of the song, know every note triggered and yet being totally unable to sing some simple english I have listen to a gazillion time.<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s weiird\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Though I always found that french was not a really good language to sing with, even young and listening to french stuff I could not pay attention or care about it. Learning song lyrics by heart was annoying for me.<\/p>\n

Music first. I automatically focus on music you know, the background noise that make lyrics shine. So much difference between being before, not understanding at all what is going on to now, where i can dissect almost any complex piece of music and give you the name of that synth or see the waveform in my head. Mmmh ADSR<\/a>..<\/p>\n

Problem is lyrics from songs are a big part of pop culture. I could not sing anything, except what I did search and learn patiently making myself, karaoke-wise, a pure disaster.<\/p>\n

I do learn some from time to time, well after digging the music of course.<\/p>\n

\u201cHey wait, what is he\/she saying? Let me see from what I feel with the music\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Now that I did that for a couple of years, I think what I like the most in lyrics is canevas of ideas, not stories. I\u2019d rather have some EW&F<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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\u201cCelebrate, change your thoughts to love
Celebrate, what you\u2019re thinking of
Time ain\u2019t long, soon we\u2019ll be moving on,
Moving on…\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

than some DJ Quik<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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\u201cThis is for the ho in you
In you, the ho in you
This is for the ho in you
In you, the ho in you\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Ok it\u2019s a bit extreme but I took this example because in both case I appreciate the music. But I can\u2019t sing something as shitty as a fake sexy-porn story. Sorry, I\u2019d rather do it for real.<\/p>\n

I think it\u2019s not just coming from the fact that I do music. I was not at 5\/6 \u2013well barely starting- and I can\u2019t say that I hate words, I always loved to read.<\/p>\n

\"Enchantment<\/a>
Sorry mermaid, it.does.not.work<\/em><\/p>\n

I think it has to do with mind independence.<\/p>\n

Having someone telling me a story 10 000 times, with the same tone, the same manner, the same words is not something I search for. Actually this is something that my brain fight against because it knows how speech is powerful. Reading is my own voice. I can interpret, do what I want.<\/p>\n

I know it\u2019s a bit of paranoia and autism that I experience. It\u2019s underneath, I can\u2019t control that. It\u2019s like if I can\u2019t make the audio speech mine, if I can\u2019t relate deeply, it just goes from one ear to the other.<\/p>\n

Or the opposite: with sad lyrics it\u2019s really easy to feel the same. I can\u2019t sing I\u2019m a creep, I\u2019m a weirdo<\/em>. Hell no. I know I am a weirdo, no need to accentuate that by singing it hundreds of time! You just have to search \u201ccreep\u201d<\/a> to find the Radiohead song, first result. Scary.<\/p>\n

I would not say that lyrics make people do stuffs. It\u2019s just that they\u2019re part of the culture and if a song can change the world in a good way, hundreds of them storytelling gangbang with whores for entire generations of men, cannot not have an impact. The impact is the glue that makes them so slow to move on but this is not the subject. Gladys Knight is right<\/a>.<\/p>\n

I listen to the singing melody, not the lyrics. I listen to it musically \u2013voice grain, rhythm, flow-. This is what I love with some<\/a> hip-hop songs, I don\u2019t give a shit about what the dude says \u2013bragging stories, nostalgia blabla- but the voice is so greatly part of the sound that I can loop it over and over. Now that\u2019s a musician behavior.<\/p>\n

Anyway, this all thing is socially impairing to me. But surfing this ocean of sounds is so good.<\/p>\n

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