Month: January 2013

I don’t know, I just feel good personally.

I feel right on it on so many things, I can’t stop thinking how my “method” of thinking works well and allows me to get excited so often, on so many things simple or complex.

Willing to learn and get better, always. That and chilling are the best things in life.

And yet I feel like being in a fantasy game where I’m the only one playing. I feel stupid or way too smart alternatively.

I don’t know how to fit in this world. I look around see if things are picking up in a good way, nope. Let’s be positive and say that if our western world is so chaotic, it’s because it’s changing pretty dramatically and that’s a good thing. Readjustment.

But what if we go the wrong direction? What if we miss a path that would make most people happy? What are we building? And if we’re not building a society and improving it, why are we faking caring about it? Should we go back to clans to prevent inertia to make progress worthless? Is it already the case?

This all thing is blurry.

That was my first “sweet!” moment after upgrading my laptop to Windows 8 yesterday. For the rest well, it feels like what I suspected:

It’s like the Windows 8 new start menu becomes a classy, modern living room to use everyday apps while the desktop becomes the clean, flattened workshop to create stuff and get complex shit done. All in one OS.

What is weird to me again, is how people spend so much time hating on things and don’t even try them! It almost made me skeptical. Maybe I shouldn’t upgrade as old Windows users know but at least have a clean, brand new machine with it. For budget reasons I upgraded and my little buddy feels super snappy, modern and all my old stuff works like before or better.

Who the fuck is going to complain? All these whiny bitches called reviewers, that’s who.

If you don’t know him, he has his Wikipedia page. A great dude. 

I’m reading a book on dog psychology and I can’t help but see numerous things I do or feel that are alike of what Cesar Millan says about our canine friends.

How dogs in nature are naturally balanced and how they start developing issues once in cities and buildings all day. Like us.

How they need a purpose, a task to do even just walking with their pack leader. How they need exercise. How there is no wrong or bad but things that happen and how you react to them. How they pick up on energy. How they value calm assertive energies and would never give an unstable dog a role of leader (thing that we do all the time in the human world with extrovert people). How the role of leader is following a natural order but is also interchangeable. How dogs don’t care about the past, move on and eat today as much as they can because their instinct is telling them that tomorrow or the close future could be without food. How it’s all about balancing and sustaining a pack. Rules, boundaries, limitations. Like us. I mean, we’re forgetting that.

I try not to. Playing and creating music requires a lot of discipline and simplicity. I try to nurture that balance in my life, having things run smoothly already makes me happy. It’s as challenging if not more than “gettin’ rich”. But like Cesar and unlike a lot of people, I grew up in the middle of nowhere and know this feeling of simply feeling good when the day is over, when your body is relaxed after working out for hours, simply enjoying each other’s presence before going to sleep.

Like dogs.

Outside my computer, another world.