Month: December 2013

So I’m making an erotic game. There are enough platformers around, I think.

Which means, sex research. Everything, from physiology to history to businesses. Getting some ideas, feeling how much I’m on something or if it’s rubbish etc. Good news is, I’m on something.

Bad news is, holy fuck is sex the subject where you see the most vile and ignorant human behavior. Race, hitting me hard when I never thought of interracial sex as “something” nor did I have physical preferences except for having kind of the same height/width that I have. Black women. Oh my, I didn’t know (fourth graphic). There’s way more depressing stuff, trust me.

(this is a very good example of how racism and race issues are always, always there somewhere even if I don’t search for them; and then they hit me with a cane the size of Jupiter.)

The ignorance and the shame around sex that I see all around, web or real world makes me realize the luck I had growing up as I did and how I’m pretty much a sexpert today.

So excitement, huge depression, hope, I got it all. Moving on.

I might reuse this picture a lot.

These days I’m realizing that one of the most powerful weapon to change things around –learning from others- is not used at all.

You know, whatever your beliefs are I always thought that when the real world shows you that there’s a better way, you go for it. I mean, this is what we did post WWII, making progress.

Today though it’s increasingly something people not only don’t want, but are against! Healthcare in the US is still a raging debate, despite Europe, despite Germany, despite Sweden, despite France, despite Costa Rica, the US will not copy something that works somewhere else and apply it to its people. Not even something as basic and crucial as healthcare. Mind blowing.

The same can be said for all cultures, France can’t structurally change despite having Germany perform a ton better and three decades of economic analysis coming from everywhere stipulating over and over what needs to change so real growth comes back. Nope.

Not knowing is one thing. Not applying is I suppose, a right albeit a dumb one. But not acknowledging that something else is better or “refusing” that it is the case is plain denial and goes against everything we went through and built up to the past thirty years. We now have to fight hard just to allow common sense to be heard (yes, end the drug war, yes, right to die etc).

It’s just fucking weird. It’s like we benefit progress everyday but don’t care about future progress that we enable now, with changes. Well, I’m craving for them changes.

Fell on this article about rimming some dude and straight anal sex.. The conclusion says it all for me: “I’m only in the meat body for so long, whatever is going to give this spirit the best experience on earth, I’m taking it. You know?”

Especially something good, harmless and free. So let’s cover the subject.

But why??

Because pragmatism: the area is packed with a mountain of nerves and vessels and muscles, like a lot. It makes sense to use all of that to enhance pleasure, don’t you think? Did you know that the area between genitals and the anus is twice as long in males as in females? That’s some playground stuff right here and so by extension, in the heat of the moment you can lick that little star too, all of that being connected underneath. The act also means that you probably completely trust your partner to do or receive the gesture, which is a sign of a healthy relationship (and why you can’t really rim a butthole on first date). Also a lot of people rim: between gay and lesbians, straight female and straight males who play with theirs, you will not be in the minority if you try:

That’s worldwide. That’s double the interest in half a decade. We are broke, bored and have the internet apparently.

But what about poop??

Well science, Bitch. You have a muscle that acts like an automatic door which is closed by default so unless you or your partner are willing to push and shit in each other’s mouth, it is safe to lick and kiss some ass. If we’re talking about poop in butt hair or around, just demand that stuff to be gone, forever. A clean and moisturized bottom is probably way safer than your coworker’s keyboard so don’t get too paranoid on that. The clean your butt and empty your stomach before playing part is obvious but I guess it needs to be said again.

Let’s say I just got out of the shower, how can I ask my partner to do it, that I’m ready?

No you’re not. You can’t just clean your butt and ask someone to lick it. You need to learn on your own first by touching, squeezing, massaging, pushing, pulling, petting the entire “danger zone” while you imagining her moaning, sucking on your cock. There, I did it all for you.

The point is to get comfortable with your own entire body, first. I’m sure I would be traumatized by anal penetration if it was to happen for the first time with someone else, in an confusing and painfully dry way.

Don’t make your partner responsible for your own body discovery, that’s your job.

Once you know yourself, the asking part is easy. You know what you want and you’ll feel if the partner is up to it and because your butt will be squeaky clean and sexy, she’ll probably go at it on her own. I mean, it happened to me.

Anyway, this stuff takes a while. It takes quite a long time for a straight male to think about something deeper than the penis tip discharge, that moment we’ve been waiting for over and over and over. Boring. It took me about a year between the idea of playing with my butt and understand my body better and find pleasure. Sometimes I would give up. “This is weird and dumb”. Pass that.

Once I found the p-spot, I increased my pleasure gradually for another year, at least. Learning how to breath. I didn’t know what you can get from controlling and playing with the Joy Machine, full throttle, including nipple stimulation. Oh yeah, touching nipples simultaneously with your genitals increases pleasure, for all humans. Nerve connection (in my twenties I HATED any nipple stimulation so I guess it’s a matter of learning). We’re talking about complete blackout of the mind, body shaking-induced orgasms. And at least 5 liters of cum everywhere. La petite mort, the real deal. I feel like it made me hornier, but more in control of it. That is some upgrade. Maybe it’s just me. I don’t think so at all.

It goes full circle: as a boy entering puberty you start shaking the tip of your tiny penis with shame to let some white stuff come out because it apparently wants to, and as an adult you start playing with your butt with shame, to achieve something way stronger than just emptying your balls. There is more to your body than just bodily functions.

*drops the mic*

*waves crowd*

Second week. I have now seen, dealt with so many dysfunctional shit that it’s a miracle that I’m not sick. The transition is always weird because I always think that it’s going to be easier than it is. That I’ll jump on my stand-up home studio and go back to my music but it’s grey, the vibe is definitely not the same in December in Paris and finishing tracks made in sunny LA… It’s not easy.

Finally, I’m soon going to port my game prototype to Unity 4 with full, official, FMOD integration. Thank god the devs made it happened in September, I was waiting for it for the past three years, hacking Unity 3.5 and crying. This is why people don’t code, too many moronic things to deal with.

I hope it will work technically. Then I’ll be able to have a bit more fun building up mechanics and less anxiety (is my tool chain dead?).

I also successfully pitched a game to the great Baratunde Thurston, so much work to do though and we’re both super busy. But that game could will have a huge impact. So excited to use all the knowledge I have to make great stuff. Every time I watch some game design guru or TED talk about how to design best, I’m totally green-lit in my approaches and that makes me even more determined.

I’m now searching for a can-pay-the-rent job in L.A. so if you have something for a good looking immigrant, please, please, please email the fuck out of my email address.

Never forget:

"Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.
Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent.
Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
Education alone will not; the world is full of educated derelicts.
Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."
                                    Calvin Coolidge

It’s just started.

A week in. Pretty brutal, let me tell you. #backtofrance #ugh