I remember reading on Steve Jobs, adopted child who having seen his father neatly fix things around became who he was, a psychopath of solving problems forever, in a way that they don’t come back, almost.
It totally made sense to me because adoption means that something crucial is broken –family- from the start so you grow up wishing it wasn’t broken and seeing your dad fixing and building things helps getting that need out. Also, I’m in the same situation. Adopted with dads fixing and building things, lefty. I look at the world and I’m like, “folks, this needs some tweaking”.
Like I would always be more interested in a country challenges than its culture or food. In a very Steve Jobs style I’d say I don’t care about that, I care about finding elegant and efficient solutions. I feel this drive for a better world. I feel this need to build (and by extension, destroy; you learn to minimize) for good 24/7.
It makes me sick when we could but we don’t, you know? It’s the worst feeling to me. It’s going to make me search for a solution until I reach for one that makes sense for as many people as possible, would it be for personal issues or public housing problems. I just love designing for us. I don’t get the “design for yourself, first”. That’s so short-sighted and obvious.
To me it’s better if everyone around is happy too, maybe that makes too much sense I don’t know but I don’t feel like it’s a shared value around and it’s freaking me out a bit sometimes.
I’ll find teams, hopefully. I’ll find people so that maybe I can scale up my projects and build more, following my design from the sound level to the business model.
Sometimes I wish I was a tall, white asshole.