More than not being employed making games,
More than not really surviving on a day job,
What hurts right now is not designing. I want to think deeply about the thousands of variables. Pondering on the effect of this or that inside the game. Simplifying. Iterating. Simulating. Visualizing. Keeping the damn scope. Game Audio. Gameplay. Game Audio. Gameplay. Updating software.
It’s hard and intense and I miss this so fucking much. Oh, and teamwork.
I’m just helping people with their computers and that makes me so much more aware of what I can do. They can’t remember a password they just created and I smile at them while I want my skull to be overwhelmed with game data, assets, files, schedules. I’m bored to death.