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Assembly

“Transcends race, they say of exceptional, dead black people. As if that relentless overcoming, when taken to the limit, as time stretches on to infinity, itself overcomes even limits, even infinity, even this place.”

“Though these hills are empty, and I am free to walk them, there’s the ever-present threat of that same impulse. To protect this place from me. At any moment, any of them could appear, could demand to know who I am, what I’m doing.”

Natasha Brown in Assembly. Short, intense, excellent.

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Only after effect

The only thing that happens to me from time to time since I got 5G in my body is, my pee heavily smells like I had just taken a giant dose of antibiotics. You know, that smell.

– Is it the vaccine fighting out an early COVID infection and thus having an overload of leukocytes flushing out?

– Is it just random malfunction due to this new mRNA thing?

– Could it be that 2013 old Four Loko can I had in a hurry, manifesting itself for no reason?

I may never know.

Booster shot scheduled for next week.

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men and women are the same lol

Three things where society makes us think that we are way different when actually, we SO are not. We are so much more the same than different. Just facts.

On physical abilities

Men are stronger on average, sure. But when women are allowed to train just as much as men —and that only happened extremely recently, since the 1970s—, they are basically as strong. Check this marathon chart with men and then women:

See how by 1970 women were allowed to train and how it dramatically changed everything? That’s my point.

Men and women can run a marathon in around two hours. Physically both able to do so. We the same.

On bitching

From my dude perspective, men bitch as much as women, but louder. Go to any forum, reddit sub, whatever communities with mostly men? Well, mfs are constantly bitching about anything: programming syntax, which basketball player deserves to be an all-star, top 5 DBZ battles etc. They will say women love to bitch but men will write 900-word comments to strangers about fantasy football picks. There’s so much bitching. We all are addicted to drama. We all bitch, just like I am right now. Men thinking that we’re much better, haven’t lived enough or haven’t been honest enough. Or both. Probably both.

On sex

Just like physical abilities, we’re the same. Wired the same. The entire spectrum of sexuality is available to women too. Same desire spectrum. Same needs spectrum. Same nerves ending at the same locations, triggering the same pleasure for men. Isn’t that odd how hard we try to differentiate men and women libido when we share 99.9% of flesh? Did you know that men and women’s orgasms pulse at about the same rate, with rhythmic contractions around 8-13Hz? Yessir.

It boringly makes sense that women and men are roughly equivalent in what we want and what we need from sex. Cultures and societies simply mess it all up, lying and making things up for us to believe.

 

Obviously for the rest, intelligence, achievements, cruelty and whatnot, it’s clear that women and men are equal. So I hate hearing, from before I was born to now that women doing a job are paid less than men doing the same job. Still. Like, how the FUCK is that still the case in the world of wireless HD videos of random people fighting at a football game? We should have had women being paid the same as men for the same job before the world of wireless HD videos of random people fighting at a football game happened, is all I’m saying.

Men and women are the same and it’s time that we act accordingly. It’ll make things easier.

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Tension was palpable

As I was not watching the Super Bowl going on in town, I could feel it.

Everything was so quiet on my bike ride. And then even more a couple hours later.

But then, the energy came back and it was time for fireworks.

GG LA or whatever.

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Entertainment saturation server side

There Are Too Many Video Games. And too much entertainment.

Over 30 new games per day, just on Steam. Around 60,000 new songs on Spotify per day. What is happening? The usual: bottom 90% scraps around and the top 1% swims in wealth to the point of finding amusing and interesting to create artificial scarcity.

The huge problems with games is that they’re the worst work/profit ratio of any creative endeavor: you can compose a great song in one hour. You can’t produce a good game in a year.

This leads me to the good old Systems VS Narrative debate. It’s an old debate in video games, but it’s starting to describe a lot what’s going on in the economy at large: we live in systems and people want to force narratives on them. Which doesn’t work. The solution is to modify those systems and make them work for a better output.

Example: people love the narrative of unions protecting employees and love to push the idea in tech: “get unions!” they will yell. But the system we are in, 2000s capitalism, doesn’t allow unions. It’s a done deal. For unions to work you need leverage to bargain, you need tangibles. The world of tech and game development are full of intangibles, from which tech to use to which market to aim. It’s bet over gamble over “I hope this works out”, times a random amount of luck. This is not a situation where you can call for unions! Yet people love the idea that we are still in 1912, working for Henry Ford. Just form a union, and you will be fine! Sadly, this is not reality.

Interestingly, the same people who want unions will –in CA, a relatively chill state- vote against Uber drivers becoming Uber employees because they don’t want their Uber costs to skyrocket. Because that’s how the system (capitalism) works: it delivers value, spits out profit, and churns out bodies. Even when voters have the option to change the lives of thousands, they vote in favor of the system that allows them to get cheap(er) Uber trips. To hell with unions and decent compensation right? I don’t think people are horrible, they just don’t want to be accountable because the systems are complex and you can always find a way to think about a problem to make you feel like it’s not yours (“Uber has to be a side gig, I don’t care!”). Which I always find funny because well, we are indeed in this together. More now than ever before.

Anyway would you write stories, build video games, compose music, edit movies, skate and do all kinds of creative stuff that makes you feel alive, you need a support system. The more you do, the steadier the support has to be. Obviously to make great games, which takes years, the support needs to be very resilient.

Universal Basic Income, y’all. That’s not a narrative. That’s a system fix that would work. 100%.

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Entertainment saturation client side

The amount of entertainment we have is ridiculous. It is directly correlated to our inability to shake some stuff up in this society of ours. So I feel like we should pay attention to this but anyway, I was overwhelmed during Christmas break even though I barely use any entertainment. I had:

3 or 4 movies (but virtually all of them). 2 documentaries. Noita. My friend’s PS4 with a dozen games. 4 or 5 books. Eating candy.

I was overwhelmed. I ended up reading a book in the sun and watching one movie. That’s not even a quarter of the amount of entertainment I had available to me! And I totally suck at entertainment. If I didn’t suck at it, I would have binged 24/7 on anything and barely remembered anything either.

I have an immense back catalog of things to entertain myself with. 48-hour days, when do we get them?

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Romantic AF

Happy Valentine’s or whatever.

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Abbott

Dear Tyler James Williams,

My man, you need to stop aging that fast. Totally unnecessary. Love you bro.

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SoFi not so fire

This is where the Super Bowl is happening. This picture gives me the runs. I can only imagine the floodlights all evening and the noise when there’s an event there. Must be nice.

On one hand, my fellow Americans are partying around an annual event centered around a game of “football”.

On the other hand, we have one of the biggest stadium ever built right in the middle of a 30+ year black and brown enclave, displacing folks and doubling the rent or mortgage for others since the construction of that concrete whale started, to watch a bunch of mostly black men destroy themselves on a field while mostly white folks from across the country and the city watch, yell and scream for hours from their $4,000 seats, during Black History month, in a still going pandemic that hits black and brown neighborhoods the hardest.

Lovely.

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rona and vibes

“California will end its indoor masking requirement for vaccinated people next week but masks still are the rule for schoolchildren, state health officials announced Monday amid rapidly falling coronavirus cases.”

No one has a granny out there, apparently??? Cases are down but deaths have been constantly up for weeks; right now in the US, we’re #2 peak death (17K/week) after last year’s January (23K/week). That’s with vaccines VS no vaccines. That’s really bad.

Omicron is still a real danger for elderly folks. I deal with them a lot and this is not good. They barely mask up.

No masking requirement for vaccinated people means no masking requirement for anyone.

This is dumb, and will kill more people. Because masks are so hard, right? smh