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Music is everything

Reading this book about Elektra Records. They talk about folk music, which was the bread and butter of that music label back in its early days.

It made me once again aware of how lyrics have never meant much if anything to me. Music is the thing. Not lyrics.

From my perspective, someone on a guitar singing lyrics I should pay attention to is not really making music. It’s some spoken word/poetry in a melodic way. I will be over it after half a song.

Music has to trigger raw, unescapable emotions, feelings, vibes not thoughts. If you’re thinking, you’re not listening.

Music is tones. Textures. Movements. It energizes. It soothes. It fits your melancholy or the needed mood. Those things are connecting with the human body and soul at a much lower level than the intellectual realm of words and lyrics.

It’s the 80s, I’m a child. Music is pouring from every room. I’m in France and overall music is probably a third French, a third American and a third English. I either don’t care about what the singer says about his girl in French, or I don’t understand what they’re saying. I naturally focus on how the music, the instruments, the production make me feel.

And the 80s are peak music (If I remember correctly, end of 70s/early 80s and end of 90s/early 00s are when the music industry made the most money). You have everything, every genre is fine. Music production then is also at its peak, profiting from all the knowledge from the 70s and the technical progress in recording gear that kept happening.

So I’m listening to everything on the FM radio. I notice what triggers goose bumps. How cool it is when instruments have a conversation between the left and right speakers. I notice the “weight” of things. Synths can be heavy and thick, but they can also be thin and fragile. Bass is that strong ass thing everywhere. Electric guitars are shape shifting all over the place.

The voice is an instrument though. I care about that. The desperation in Playboi Carti’s voice for instance, is important to the vibe. But what he’s mumbling about, I don’t care at all.

That’s why I never could get into any folk music, or rap ever. But I hear a Patrice Rushen’s chord progression and I want to close my eyes and cuddle, immediately. No thoughts. Just emotions.

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Quick before 26 or whatever

Still the 31st here. It’s raining. Some mild covid symptoms. There’s a variant that gives me diarrhea for sure and it is here inside me.

What a tense year under the stupidest government we have ever experienced. Hoping everyone gets back to their senses and stops being insane? Not sure hopes are enough. Get off your phone.

For myself, I hope a lot. Working super hard. Studying like a maniac. I am building this custom house to pursue a lifestyle with no name involving reading books, cooking and skateboarding in and out the crib, possibly. Fancy or not, immensely satisfying to me.

Thankful. Let’s fucking go.

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That fake French gibberish in Andor season 2

I couldn’t even read the subtitles, I swear.

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Fuck LED lights

It’s that bad. I don’t understand how it’s not absolutely illegal. It is completely insane here in LA. It gets worse because people’s reasoning is “I’ll buy the same insane headlights so that I’m never blinded!” and now everyone not having those stupid lights is suffering.

I’ve never looked more at the bottom right corner of my field of vision than these days. It’s that or complete blindness. Sometimes it is so absurd (like rearview mirror literally being an intense white page of #ffffffff), I laugh like a maniac, ducking in my car.

Sadly, it’s not just on the road. At work they started to replace fluorescent lights with 4600K LED bullshit and I told them hell to the fuck no are you insane?? Transforming the office into a gas station!

At home I bought a 65W LED “warm” light for a table and this shit is not only loud as fuck (I needed a 3W one) but it displays a way too uniform, robotic light. It’s creepy. It’s flat, unnatural. I swapped it for a 6W incandescent light and it’s so, so, so much better. Much closer to fire and sun. Nice colors.

The issue arises on a show like Andor, too. “we’re using simulated daylight with LEDs and it’s awesome!” If it’s immediately recognizable, especially in 4K then no, it’s not awesome at all.

So, they’re not great. They’re expensive. They’re not clean, full of plastic and PCB. People are getting used to them because they keep looking at their phones and all that LED blue light grossness is numbing them. Manufacturers keep pushing them on some “oh you wanted some lighting? Here’s some balls to the wall, 10,000 suns light in your damn face bitch” BS.

Fuck LED lights.

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Online shift

Thinking a lot about the digital world because like:

  • Algos, bots, AI.
  • Online search basically dead.
  • Pictures and videos, also dead.

So who is real, for real? I know I am and a few blogs I’ve been following for 10+ years are too. But for the rest today? I don’t know at all.

This is a first in internet history.

I’m reading a book about a music label and there are multiple reports of women talking about going back home alone at night in NYC and never once feeling scared of anything. It was truly like that. 1950s.

In the 2000s, you never felt like the online profile or username was not real. It always was. If it wasn’t it was quickly obvious. The point was to find people like you so you needed to be you/define yourself.

2010s social media massively changed that (clout-chasing) and now it’s all pointless trash.

Writing online helps in so many ways, but I’ve been doing this for so long. The gains have already paid off. I remember starting though. After a few posts, wondering if that was useful at all.

The youth is emptying their energy online in manipulation-ridden silos controlled by private companies. That’s probably more problematic than starting a website and sharing thoughts.

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Giant Robo

I happened to have completely missed it in the 90s and 00s.

7 OVAs. The five hours of it all on YouTube.

The music barely stops and couldn’t be more phenomenal and epic. Cool story. Tons of characters. I see the massive influence on all giant robot-based anime that came after, especially Evangelion.

I watched it last month and still think about it.

Can happiness be achieved without sacrifice? Knowing that happiness is a never-ending process, this means some change of state, which probably indicates a worse and better side for things. Now does this mean sacrifices? What is a sacrifice? In this essay, I will…

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Displays

I noticed how 65″ and bigger TVs swallow people’s minds. Whatever it is on screen, it doesn’t matter. At that size your eyes and brain are overwhelmed enough for you to not do anything but stare.

Phones do the same with a small size, but constantly.

I am on 15″ and 24″ most of the time and I am in control. Big enough to do anything properly, not convenient or giant enough for me to become their bitch.

Considering how good companies are at getting us hooked on anything, the less I am locked in on what is happening on a screen (usually to make me buy stuff), the better.

It’s the little things, y’all!

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I mourn places a lot

(via this site)

Places have souls. They have seen things. They are guardians of those things. Or something.

20 years ago when I learned that they had destroyed Stax Records’ studio, an old movie theater with an amazing sound (only to build a copy across the street, jfc), I felt devastated.

My foster mom’s house potentially sold next year can’t be true.

My friend’s apartment she told me yesterday that she left recently, makes me sadder than it should. It had one of those 50s/60s very well thought-out layout and I have great memories from it. Gone.

It’s probably a mix of being from Europe where places don’t change for 75 straight years if not longer, and the adoption thing which makes one acutely aware of spaces due to not belonging to any by default. Those together trigger in me a greater sense of loss when places change, transform, disappear.

America and Japan are ruthless on that end.

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Burn it all down

Got hit with this the other day:

Note that:

  • This was to watch a skateboard video (some littering seen and “let’s fucking go” heard) on YouTube.
  • My gmail itself is 21 years old.

The good news is, it looks like Google doesn’t know much about me (I’m not using my gmail address like that).

I didn’t watch the video. What a nightmare.

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AI reddit killed reddit

Reddit is the most manipulative shit I have ever seen. The algorithm is such a desperate bitch these days! It tries and tries.

The thing is now with how people use AI, anything that looks real can be 100% synthetic. A thoughtful comment. An inspiring video. A picture of something incredible. I spent the past few weeks wondering more about if something was real than actually learning things. Wild!

Therefore, there’s no value anymore. It was already the most astroturfed website ever, but now it’s literally pointless.

This is freeing. This is good.