Category: Me Myself&I

I’m freaking out about our habits. There’s no way my local businesses –and yours– survive a second year of pandemic. Ordering online is too convenient, easy and completely baked in our lives now.

Will we get bored of receiving things at our doors? I don’t think so. Shopping around is cute and fun to do with your boo or family, but it’s better when it’s not often.

They’ve been building so much retail around in the past few years, there’s no way they can wait for years for those spaces to gross income. Although, real estate mfs have so much money they might be able to sit on their properties until 2025.

The mom & pop shops though. Protect them. Put two masks on and go buy stuff there.

How it started

How it’s going

Plants and bass are utterly important, as you can see.

Things aligned for me to get this great place in a way that I’m not going to try to understand, because I’m healing right now. It’s good.

So much to do. So much to feel. Let’s mf go!

So it’s like, it’s crazy, people attack the Capitol and stuff.

Next thing you know we have a billion meme in 45 minutes about the man that would make a MUCH better president right now.

Humor as a coping mechanism, yes, sure. But dang, at that scale it’s a bit frightening.

Netflix is about to decide what you want to watch.

Windows 10 updates itself depending on how long we’re away from the computer, like a bitch.

I never use webmails but now I have to and emails are typing themselves now????

I can only buy Jazmine Sullivan’s new album on two “platforms”?

I only have one cable provider available and no other choice?

Amazon wants my ID to buy stuff that I could buy for the past decade without?

ANY AGENCY LEFT TO US, CAN WE LIVE

I often hear the argument that one community needs to bootstrap and stop asking for help, because that’s how communities always have been doing: they bootstrap themselves and then rule whatever part of the world, economy, etc. This completely ignores the concentration and abuse of power that we’ve witnessed in the past 70 years or so.

See how the US is almost at 30,000 in 2000? It is now past 60,000 in 2020. Luxembourg is at 100,000. So basically, a straight line going up.

This colossal wealth has been generated by ourselves and our families, and of course a whole lot of stealing and abuse of power and millions of people dying. It is also concentrated in less and less hands which means an abrupt disruption in any kind of bootstrapping. You simply can’t bootstrap yourself anymore. The capital is gone, owned by a Chinese oligarchy or an American trust fund. If your family is doing fine, they’re not doing fine enough for you to “try” something. If you’re lucky to do so, you will sell to whichever big company before you burn yourself to the ground or said companies asphyxiate your business with unfair practices (aka they have money, you don’t).

We have like 6 companies doing ALL of our entertainment. We have about the same number for ALL of our food, do you understand how different the world is since 2000s globalization?

Refusing to talk about fairly redistributing wealth considering how the world is today doesn’t demonstrate a lot of compassion, to say the least. Not engaging in reparations conversations for black Americans considering the history and the receipts (up to right now, with black folks waiting in line for 10+hours to VOTE and block a second term), is so violent and dismissive.

But here we are, arguing over a one-time small ass payment of $2000 in a pandemic while trillions move left and right in the arcane of banks and corporations. Sigh.

Print test

That wasn’t for me

Rest in Power, Jim

My dude Oreo

He too cute

Resting

Contemplating

A lot has happened since my last post. Yet nothing has changed. Always weird to experience.

I moved out and moved into a great little place, around where I wanted to live. I texted my friend about it and he said “bro, I was about to get rid of my couch” which I love and will get for free in the next couple weeks. *alignments*

It was emotionally taxing to look for a place in the middle of Christmas and NYE at the end of a global pandemic year. I never ever want to do this ever again. My realtor came through, though. I thank you so much.

I can’t stop thinking about two things right now:

– People with good internet connections:

They are in their own worlds for months. I imagine a 20 year old watching the news, booting up his console and about to dive for 8 hours in a virtual world, chatting with his friends. They’re disconnected from reality with such powerful and compelling entertainment (from raiding Destiny to binge-watching Netflix) that I keep wondering how reality looks after months, years of heavy online habits. It probably looks strange and unattractive, yet it does matter more than anything on your screen and always will. It’s interesting.

– People with bad internet connections:

Well I’m I’ve been temporarily in this situation and it’s clear that the past ten years of web development habits (fancy UI stuff, un-optimized JS slug fest ) have created a new classism: if your internet is bad, you can’t load anything from the browser, you need to use a phone and apps. The problem is, they’re not the best for many things we do online especially with work and files. It shows in this WFH paradigm.

This is where the 2000s internet shines: native software connecting to the outside is a lot more resilient and can survive a bad connection. For instance, if you try to load up a pdf in a browser on a bad connection, it usually fails. Try to download it and it will. You can then read it locally without issues. RSS is far more resilient than any social media. And not manipulative. But ANYWAY

Keep staying safe in 2021.

I mean, what to expect.

Sitting here, wearing my mask. My roommates have been shopping and going to malls quite a bit in the past week so, I’m still isolating. I totally do not have the energy to explain to them why I’m stressed out with their behavior.

Just had a death record beat in LA County. People do not give a single anything. It’s going to be crazier in 30 days.

Outstanding weather was my present. Being thankful of being here was as well. I also applied to another job that has nothing to do with anything I’ve been doing before because well, 2020.

Yup.

It was a beautiful Christmas, probably the best looking one I had ever been part of.

My grandmother had everything set up and out: fancy food, fancy cutlery, fancy everything. We’re all dressed up. We arrive on the Eve and everything is peaceful.

I get a RC car on the 25th. And it says on the box “use turbo to go up to 21mph!’’

I ask dad “that’s pretty fast, right?” and he answers, super matter of factly “yes, that speed would allow you to go through a wall” and I’m like “not with this car, right?” and he says, drinking his wine, “uh with this car yes”.

I ponder. I visualize. I run simulations in my head and of course when no one is looking, I run my RC car into the wall to see. Nothing. It just bumps out and loses momentum. At some point my dad sees me persevere and says something like “don’t do that please tf?” and I’m thinking “I’m running serious EXPERIMENTS HERE help me out instead of shutting down the lab.”

It made me realize that walls are pretty strong. One does not simply go through a wall. That 21mph is not really fast and that if you want to go through a wall at that speed, you need some serious weight. Something a RC car doesn’t have.

I don’t know how long it took me to realize that but probably a few weeks or so and the conversation about going through a wall at 21mph rose up again. Dad was like “oh yeah, I meant with a real car”.

This was the first time that this meme –even though I didn’t know it at that time, showed up in my mind:

Don’t forget that things are weird.

I know people who have what I’ve been at work for. People from family to friends, through two different countries and pretty different cultures.

They’re depressed or really close to. Which is always a shock to me, when I believe that in their situation I would wake up jumping off bed, yelling GOOD MORNIN’ HOT DAMN LET’S GO and do dope stuff all day long.

The point is, things are strange. We have things others don’t and vice versa. You’re great. Don’t stress. Focus and rest. Keep going. Falcon punch life in the dick.