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Can we talk about Isaiah Thomas. I know, I can’t be a fan because he plays for the Celtics and when you’re in LA you can’t be for the Celtics. That’s wrong and common sense. And those Lakers are dope and promising.

But my boy is ME: left-handed, 1,75m. You should not possibly be doing that well in a forest of big ass 2m trunks. He looks like a kid playing with adults on the court. And yet he’s crucial to Boston, scoring like the mailman. Clutch af. Making it rain from the perimeter. It’s absurd.

You have to understand, after the 90s and the Bulls the 2000s were definitely about the big men: Shaq, Duncan, Garnett, the 2004 Pistons. These days a lot of small players have a big impact but THAT small and THAT impactful I’m like “nah, this isn’t supposed to happen”.

Isaiah does it though.

Things that might be worth stating because holy shit y’all are wildly losing it:

– Presidents are not directly responsible for everything a government does, for fuck’s sake. Governments are systems running in the background and presidents are just a face for it. They sign shit but it’s not like they have the choice to not sign things if they don’t want to. Example: do you think Obama wouldn’t have legalized weed across the country when we have a picture of him smoking some and that a few states legalized it and are doing great? Of course he would have but he could not. The feds. DEA. Agencies that need budgets and told him to STFU. Same way, you think he could say stop bombing the middle east when the military has a $580B annual budget (ponder on that number), employs millions of people, covers millions of families with strong healthcare, offers the best loans you can possibly get? Of course he fucking could not. The military owns the US government since forever. We all know that.

– We do not live in absolute. We live in a world with boundaries, basic rules and a History that determines what we’re doing today. It’s about balancing and counterbalancing. Absolute Free speech doesn’t exist because if you incite violence, instill hate and fear and get your ass whooped because of that, it’s because you needed to STFU in the first place you idiot. If you scream out loud that you love everyone and want to hug everybody on sight, you will be fine. I know, it’s fucking nuts.

– You think you can just read a link after a 5mn search on the internet and think you got the picture, you didn’t. Data takes time to understand, hence the “let that sink in”. You’re not a CPU+RAM. The world scale is so much bigger than you imagine and if you’re in your 20s you don’t know shit, never will. It takes a long time to understand the consequences of redlining in the US or how Arabs feel after the past 60 years or how women feel, still getting 30% less money wise while running households. You need to eat shit, travel, be vulnerable somewhere unfamiliar to understand some things. Reading about it or watching a documentary online will never give you the understanding you need, just the start of it.

– Stop freaking the fuck out all the time. Stop being scared. I lived on three continents with a pretty big variety of people, the biggest constant is that people are just trying to be happy, minding their own business. You look dumb fearing brown people when you escort white terrorists to jail after they randomly killed a bunch of innocents. You look dumb when you act like discrimination is a thing of the past while all numbers and facts show the incredibly not diverse or inclusive state of most things in our societies. We see you, we see it.

So back to work. Do better. Resist the pettiness. Fuck your pride, fuck your guilt. Open up, listen. Ponder. STFU. And act. Thank you.

Last month I:

– created dozens of sound effects

– edited and uploaded two reels

– recorded a few hours of ambiences

– produced a few music tracks, including a GoGo track

– assisted a photo shoot

– cut, grinded, sanded 18 big ass art frames

– cut, grinded, sanded 2 huge ass fireplace screens

– painted my house’s lobby ceiling, including the part over the stairs where it’s scary

I’m not counting the usual stuff and the 40 or 50 miles biked on the Women’s march. So it’s doable. I do not recommend at all though. it’s a bit too much of a stretch, from noisy hard physical work all the way to super high concept brainy work that requires silence, I’m tired like I’ve rarely been.

This month I just got a potentially super dope gig for a big name in tech to make music for and my flight reservation for the GDC17 is in my inbox. Everything’s in flames but I’m making moves.

I know things look gross from a distance but locally there’s a lot of care, love and sticking together happening and it makes me happy.

I’m just reading Herbie Hancock’s autobiography. It’s about music and life choices and creativity.

Herbie like me, like black in men is an ambassador of loving one another. He had the luck to avoid most of the rough and hard racism most of his life.

Nevertheless, he speaks about Emmett Till who was his age and coming from the same neighborhood in Chicago. He was shook when it happened, enough that he writes a few pages about it in his biography. Who wouldn’t be traumatized after seeing those pictures.

Well, we just learned yesterday that the white woman confirmed that she lied about Emmett Till doing anything to her. He did not. He got lynched for no reason.

It’s shit like this, people. It’s shit like this. Black people don’t look after racism or proof of racism. We’d rather have none of that. We’d rather have no proof, no statements, no pictures, no trauma, no trust issues, no tears, no pain.

We’d rather just live.

Man, those four years are going to be long.

It rained a lot –almost a full week of water, cray- and everything is luscious and green.

Working four different jobs, no insurance, living the dream. I probably will go to the GDC this year, I won a ticket at the lottery. Still have to find a place to crash.

4 billion people. I counted.

It was great and it also showed the divide, the absence of trust. Everyone in his own bubble from people who are “still with Her” to people who “voted for Bernie so it’s not my fault”, to interracial couples –when intersectionality exists for real- who are definitely the exception and not the rule. Virtual Unity.

I live with three white folks, two women and one dude. I’m the only one who went to the march and I know they could all have been there in the morning. I’m not even surprised and I’m mad that I’m not surprised. I just know it fits this world where a whole lot of fake shit is happening and people are OK with that.

So back to work. Back to being a fuck ton better without a smart ass sign, no bragging rights, just plain making the world better, silently. That works wonder.

Information-wise, nothing has been the same since November 8th.

Too much sarcasm, too much butthurt, too much nonsense, too many people gaming search engines, news and social media.

The thing it does to people is that they forget about the past. They forget about history. There’s too much new data everyday to keep up with while remembering the important bits from five, ten, twenty years ago. Younger generations erase everything before 2000 and broadband internet. That’s a big issue.

People indulge in pouring oil on fires, it’s so easy online. A click, two clicks it’s off to dozens, hundreds, thousands, millions of people. People are addicted to that new power. Hyperconnectivity. We can say whatever about FB  and we had tons of debates about it but real identity definitely curves the fuck out of trolls. I’ve seen countless amazing and great conversations there. Twitter is pretty much dead.

There is so, so much noise. It’s very difficult to believe anything ever, which is a bad thing if you want to communicate, solve, understand. Which is what we need.

Damn I should be supreme commander in chief.